{Superbloom Musings} Life's Mess, Magic, The Not-Self & Moving Forward With Integrity.

In today's episode, I take you back into the experiences of the last 18 months that have impacted the ways in which I'm moving forward so that we have a foundation to bloom from. I share: 

• Insights into my experience with an ectopic pregnancy, surgery and fertility treatment. 
• The shifts I'm making in business after realising the not self of my open heart center was running the show and I was slowly creating a business I didn't even want. 
• How human design has impacted my understanding of others with IRL examples. 
• A peak into whats coming, its going to be delish!

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Transcript

Speaker 2: 0:37

Hello and welcome back to the podcast. I am feeling really good about recording this episode. Now I'm going to tell you that I have zero notes for you today. Zero notes. This is me sitting here, my defiant throat, my eyes closed, really just here to anchor in what is what has been and the wisdom and the lessons of what has been so that we can move forward. Because there is a part of me that just feels like without doing this, I cannot move forward. It feels out of integrity. It feels clunky. It's it's just not going to work. So here I am. And what's also interesting is if I look at, the data in my business ever, the time where is there is the most resonance, there is the most feedback, there is the most engagement, is when I share and about me personally. And I don't think that's a coincidence. It is the reality of us as humans. We love story. We connect through story. We connect through, resonance, right? And I think it is such a beautiful thing when we can share our stories. And I, in that, I'm also a big advocate that your story is yours. Nobody else's, and if you do want to share your story, if you feel cool to share your story at any point in time, that you do so on your timeline and in your way. And I've spoken about this before on Instagram. And it's something that I will likely reference, moving forward because I think the last 18 months of my life have been incredibly difficult and there is many stories in the last 18 months and I am going to share with you a snippet of that. However, I would need to do a whole seasons podcast to give you an update on the ins and outs of it all. And I say that to remind you that, you don't know any, you don't owe anybody your story. You get to share it in your time, in your way, and that's exactly what I'm doing here today. I wanted to give you that permission to essentially remind you that just because you're hearing my story doesn't mean that you have to go out and share your own. And that I, that is a pressure that I know can be felt from time to time when we hear people talking about their stories. So just giving you that little bit of permission there. Now, I, like I said, the last 18 months of my life have been very colorful. There has been a lot of lessons. There has been a lot of challenge. There's been heartache and I am finally feeling like I am coming out the other side, like a chapter has really closed, a loop has really closed, and now we're starting another one. I thought that this might've been the case a little while ago, however, I wasn't quite there. And before coming to you today, I've made sure that I've ridden my emotional wave. I feel like I'm in this place and I can feel it in my energy. My energy just wants to move. It's like my defined root center just wants to move. It's do the thing. My defined root is do the thing and do it now. We're doing that. Now, I am going to reference human design a lot in this episode because it is the foundation of a lot of my work moving forward and I think it can be really helpful when we hear human design in real life examples. It can help us to really understand and move forward and embody our human design. Be active, not passive, in the experiment of our human design. Let's begin by taking a little trip back. Because I believe context is important. And, as a Libra, Libras love context. If you have a Libra in your life, or a lot of Libra in your chart, I am a Libra Sun, and I have Libra in my Mercury. and my Mars. So Libra is very active. The energy of Libra is very active when it comes to me communicating, when it comes to me taking action and all the things. Libras love context is basically what I'm telling you. Libras aren't indecisive. If you ever think about, there's this notion that Libras are indecisive and it's simply not the case. When you come across a Libra who seems indecisive, it is simply that they don't have enough information or context. Libras love to receive information and context to make correct decisions for them. And they also love to give information and context to support you in your understanding and decision making and things like that. If a Libra is giving you context just sit with it, just sit tight because we'll get to the point eventually. I want to take you back, and I want to take you back to late 2023. Now, in late 2023 quite a bit before that, my partner and I decided that we were ready to start a family. And for those of you who don't know, I am in a same sex relationship. Very gay. And I know that there is often a lot of questions when it comes to creating a family as a same sex couple and I'm going to tell you that this episode is not about how we did that process. This is simply sharing. Elements of the story of, our journey so far to give you context for whatever else I'm going to share in this episode. So take it back to late 2023. We entered our first cycle. Now I was the one going through treatment because we made the decision that I would be the one to carry first for, a number of reasons. And that was, our decision to move forward with. So we, did all the things, we got all the testing, which the testing you have to get done and the sign offs from psychologists you have to get done is pretty wild. Now we got all that done. So we were ready to, dive in and do the thing. Now this was around my birthday that the, we went through the treatment and it felt special, that it was on my birthday. I was like, this is, this feels really good. feels symbolic in a way. And we went through that treatment and. We came to the beginning of the two week wait. Now I, from that first cycle, I knew in my bones, in my cells, in my body, intuitively, I knew I was pregnant. Now, come the end of that two week wait, when we went in and I had bloods taken and they test your HCG for your levels of, pregnancy and whatnot, and it came back that unfortunately the cycle was unsuccessful and I was not pregnant. I began to question myself am I just not as in tune with my body as I thought I was? And for those who don't know, I've done so much body work. I've done so much work in connecting with my body, in healing my body. The connection I do have with my body is on another level. So when they told me that the, I wasn't pregnant and they told us that the cycle was not successful, we were like, okay. Like the chances, like the statistics say it's pretty low. Like first go is pretty low. And there was still this part of me though, that was like, Oh, I. I just, I couldn't let go of this thing of but I knew I was pregnant. I knew. And it was like, okay, maybe, it initially talk, but then it dropped off, it, dropped off really quickly or whatever. Now, we went to go into another cycle because okay, the first one didn't work. I'm feeling fine. Let's just go into another one. Now, we went into that one to find out that we'd, missed the point where, we could do any treatment because apparently I had already ovulated and it wasn't actually that I'd already ovulated. I was in fact pregnant. Now I, it wasn't discovered that I was pregnant until the eight week mark, and it was discovered when I went in for additional testing, additional scans and testing. blood work. And they, sent me, I had to, I had so many scans that day. and they had said that they were suspicious that I was actually pregnant with an ectopic pregnancy. And so From that point, we were at the specialist office and we were directed to go straight to emergency, because at this point it was very dangerous, where I was at. I was, in a very vulnerable position to this pregnancy rupturing, and For those of you who don't know, an ectopic pregnancy is essentially when, there is a pregnancy that is outside of the uterus. Now, most often, like more often than not, these pregnancies happen in the fallopian tubes. And what can happen, and it generally happens, from about six weeks onwards, is that it can actually burst and it can cause internal bleeding. Which, as we know, internal bleeding isn't great. It can be quite fatal. So There was deep concern when they were suspicious this day of the ectopic pregnancy, so they directed us to go straight to emergency, and so we, went home, gathered the things, and we live very close to this clinic, and very close to the hospital, so that wasn't, and we got that cleared. the okay to do that. So we weren't putting my, me in any more danger. went and got my things and went to emergency. And within a couple of hours, it was about two, two and a half hours. I was being wheeled into surgery and I, it all happened so, so fast. And the processing of that truly really didn't happen until much later on. And what has been really interesting though, through that experience is that. I didn't experience that loss how I hear pregnancy loss spoken about. I definitely experienced a lot of grief and a sense of loss. However, it wasn't so much about losing that pregnancy. It was the things that surrounded it, the events that surrounded it, and all the things. And one thing I took away Almost immediately was that, and this was happening when I was still in hospital, was that this ectopic pregnancy happened simply to give me hope. And if you're listening to this you might be like, what the hell are you talking about? Why would you think that an ectopic pregnancy happened to give you hope? I just knew this in myself. I knew that this soul had come through to the point of an ectopic pregnancy to give me hope. And since, this was back in 2013, the end of 2013. I had surgery, mid to late November. We, like I said it came to give me hope. And that, the longer that time's gone on, the more. I am so certain of that. It's like undeniable. The eptopic happened. I was like, okay, this is giving me hope for, the knowledge that my body can do the thing it's meant to do, right? My body, there were an embryo, like an egg fertilized, matured, like an embryo, all the things. It's I'm getting sidetracked here, but basically it was like, okay, my body can do the things it needs to do. Just got a little bit stuck, just fell asleep halfway down the tube is what we referenced it as. Now This happened late 2023 and from then we continued cycle after cycle. We just kept going and in those moments I felt more than okay to keep going. It did not feel like there was pressure. there was definitely moments it was hard, like you can imagine cycle after cycle seeing You know, negative testing, getting the, I'm so sorry, but it was unsuccessful. That beats you down. That really gets you. and so over time, I think there was, something that was being chipped away within me and it got to a point. late last year where I knew and we both knew that we needed to give my body a break. we needed to just take a pause and reset my body, because it had been through a lot. If you've been through fertility treatment before and have been on fertility medication, you know the toll that it takes on your body. Like I was out of, say 18 months, I was on medication for about 70 percent of that time. So I wasn't myself. And I think back to the person that it caused me to become. And I don't love that version of myself. I have a lot of grace and compassion for her. However, I don't. love the version of myself that I was in that time. And it's not that I have any, shame around that or anything. It's just it wasn't me. I think that's the thing. It didn't feel like me. And, coming to this point late last year, I was like, I just no longer feel like my body belongs to me. Like I need to regain this connection. I need to regain this sense of anchoredness within my body, within my energy and in my system. there was a decision to do that and there was, decisions to, change specialist, which I am so grateful for because what that then led to was my need for surgery.

13:47

Now, I had surgery at the end of January.

Speaker 2: 13:51

And we are now 20th of Feb, so just shy of four weeks ago. And this surgery has been game changing, life changing. The clarity that's come from this is so wild. Now, this has also been a lot for me to process because Yes, there is relief, like I cannot tell you the relief, the symptoms I was having pre surgery out of this world, like nerve pain that just wasn't a thing, like really bad fatigue. My sleep got really bad. Just all of these things. My skin was crazy. I was having digestive issues. You name it. I had it like hives, so crazy, just all of this stuff. It was clear that my body was just in a really intense stress response. Like my body was so inflamed and it was stressed out of its mind. And it wasn't until I had this surgery and within a couple of days, this, all of these symptoms started to disappear. It was wild. And I'm not shocked because I've had these surgeries before. I've done so much energy work and so much body work that I know how my body heals and I know that it can be very dramatic and very drastic when certain things I support my body in certain ways. Now, the other thing. That was, not the other thing, but essentially, like I said, this was a lot for me to process because yes, there was the positive of all these symptoms going away, right? The thing that was the tricky thing to process was this information was ready and available 12 months ago. So this information That drove my new specialist to take this action to, say, before we do anything, we need to do these surgeries. I had a double surgery. We need to do these surgeries before we move forward It was processing the fact that the medical system that had let me down years before, that had continually let me down, that had continually gaslit me, really Did it again. And it was a lot to process because I felt like I'd let myself down. I had let my guard down in the ways that I'd learned to advocate for myself. I didn't do that as much as I wish I did. I didn't make the decision. sooner to switch, which I wish I did. And also though, knowing that this journey, the way it's played out, it's played out exactly as it's meant to because I am now in such a brilliant place with my body and so in tune even more than before, if that's possible. And I feel so supported now. So it's been a complete 180, but it's been a lot to process. And in this time I pulled myself back from the world. I pulled back my work. I stuck to the bare minimum. I didn't promote myself. I didn't market myself and I needed that to maintain my peace. I needed that to take care of myself. I didn't have capacity to be taking on a lot of the outside world. So I really stepped back and what has been, excuse me, really interesting in this desire to step forward again, to be seen and be visible again, is that so much, it feels a bit discombobulating. It feels very weird. And I shared this on threads recently about how when projectors, get burnt out or they feel really overwhelmed and so much so that they need to stop and stop for a period of time, like really pull away, it can feel really discombobulating, really tricky to get going again, to be out in the world again. And I shared this on threads and then I shared it on my Instagram story just the other day and I got messages back about how People resonate with this so much and a beautiful manifestor reached out to me and she's I feel this too. This is a thing, so it's really interesting to be in this experience. And I think I. I want to share that with you in knowing that if you are in a place where you're coming out of a cocoon, you're coming out of a period where you have pulled back, you haven't wanted to be seen, it know that you get to do it messy and like to do it messy is to do it perfectly, right? To do it weird is to do it wonderfully. This is what I said on my stories the other day. It just, there's no need for perfectionism. There's no need for explanation or anything like that. In allowing myself to step back into the world, I felt like I needed to really acknowledge all of that, acknowledge everything that's happened because it has been as well through that whole process. Yes, I've been going through a lot personally. And like I said, there's so much that happened in and around that I'm talking multiple cancer diagnoses. I'm talking death. I'm talking multiple family members in hospital. I'm talking dementia deterioration of one of my family members. Very close family members and just on and on 2024 was so relentless and I know it's not only me who felt this. I know so many people went through such difficult things in 2024. So I know I'm not alone in this and through going through all of that, through having to navigate that, it also became a decalcification process in what I liken it to in, I had to decalcify everything I was not moving forward with. So as the version of me, I'm sitting with you today. There's certain things that I have released. There's things that I have decalcified and let go so that I can move forward in a way that I feel. Like vital. I feel well, I feel excited. I feel like I'm living a life that I actually want to live. When it comes to business, I'm offering things I actually want to offer. I am no longer denying myself of the opportunity to show up and to share and to guide people in the things that I could talk about for hours and days, the things that I truly love. There was a part of me, I think that it had become, I did I, yeah, Retained this belief that I couldn't really do the things that I loved so much, the things that I was obsessed with, because that was too easy. Like it should be a little bit hard, right? And I grew up with Capricorn women surrounding me. I grew up with sacrals surrounding me. So there is this conditioning that I'm aware of that I, as a projector, I've had this belief that in order to create success, I need to work hard. And that has shown up in many ways. And that was just one of them. So it's been really interesting to move throughout this process, to grieve everything and to even grieve the old me, to even grieve the business that I'd created. Like I realized that I had started to create a business that I didn't even want. I was offering things that I wasn't that excited about offering. Like they were phenomenal offers and I could do a phenomenal job at it yet. It wasn't what truly lit me up. It wasn't what I could spend hours in. It wasn't what filled my cup. And, thinking about that, I just got to a point of like why am I doing this? Like it felt so ridiculous when the realization hit of like, why on earth am I doing this? So I removed it. Within 24 hours, it was gone. And this is all around specific business offerings like business coaching specifically because what I came to realize is no matter what I have offered over time, whether it be business coaching, health coaching, web design, graphic design, hairdressing, it doesn't matter what it's been, my work and The power that I have and the way that I support people and the transformation that they feel always, every single time comes back to them as an individual, them as the visionary, them in feeling connected to their true self, them in feeling confident in communicating and holding boundaries, them in discovering like Their true self so much that they trust themselves again, like deep self trust in connecting to the intuition, developing their intuition. It's all these things that was the common thread that ran through everything. I got to this point where I realized, offering this business coaching yeah, I'm great at it. I, and I'm not saying that to be arrogant. It's simple. It's a simple fact. Like I can see things that, as projectors in general, we can see things that other people can't see. And that is so valuable in business. We can see systems and strategies and ways of being and doing things that. Others can't all the time so much, right? We just see things differently. It's not that people don't see enough. It's just that we see things very differently. And that was very helpful when it came to business coaching, when it came to brand coaching, like all of these things, my toolkit is huge. However, in deciding to clean out my toolkit in deciding to release the things that in fact, even though I was good at them, I don't need to carry forward. It felt so freeing. And. This was really interesting to observe through my human design because I, in my human design, I have a open heart center. Now, the not self of an undefined or hope and heart center is this need and this way of trying to prove yourself. So trying to prove your worth, your value that you know enough, all the things this is real proving energy. And I think that I was really operating in my not self of my heart center, trying to prove that I could do it. It was like, For some reason, I thought that I needed to be a business coach exclusively to prove that I could do it and that I could be successful. I could create success right now. What's hilarious about that is my success. It's never been relevant to, business coaching. I will forever support women in business. That is just a fact. However, my work, when it comes to. Visionaries, women, whoever in business is the work with the self because when the self is dysregulated, when the self is uncentered, like when you aren't showing up as someone who you are not. Your success cannot find you. It cannot stay with you. So that is where the real work is. I work on the foundations. And which is hilarious as a line for I have, I'm a four six profile. Line four is very foundational. Line one and line four are the foundational lines. We love and we care about foundations. It is so important. So when I think about this. It is no surprise, and a few years ago, I actually had a group program called Homecoming, and it was the most phenomenal space, I just adore the women I had in that space, and it was really beautiful to sit and come to this realization recently, just to look back over, it feels like I've come full circle, that I was You know, in alignment a really long time ago and for some reason I came off track. I also had this story for a really long time that I'm not going to make human design a really big part of what I do because I don't just want to be known as a human design reader. It's hilarious because now human design feels like a huge part of my work. There is no denying it. I've been working with and experimenting with human design since 2018. For a system that's stuck around with me for that long, for a system that will it refuses to leave me alone, it's constantly knocking at my brain, knocking at my door and it's just, it's in my cells, it's just there. Who am I to deny that of myself, right? It doesn't mean that I have to be exclusively a human design reader and that is it. There is so much that I am excited to share with you when it comes to using human design as a tool for, really anchoring back into your center and coming back to your true self because it's been what has, it's been what's led me back to myself. So I'm really excited to share that moving forward with my work. And knowing that I am really deconditioning in ways that. I haven't before and deconditioning my business to not running my business like a sacral anymore because that does not serve me. If anything, I'm here to, run business and show up in life seasonally, not with this relentless and consistent. Crazy like life force energy that just chugs and keeps on going like that's not how I'm here to operate and it just feels so freeing I think to not only Acknowledge that and admit that to myself but to share that with you as well and to give you the permission that this Can be present for you as well. Now what's been really interesting after Navigating all this and having the surgery and feeling really well on the other side of it and wanting to step back into the world. Invitations have started to flow so effortlessly. It's wild. And I mean it's not that wild actually because I am just anchored into my center and I'm anchored into my super bloom and it feels really good. So I'm excited for what's to come. Now, I Don't have a set plan for, the next five to 10 episodes of this podcast. I know it's going to be a lot about human design. I know it's going to be a lot about you coming back to your center. I know it's going to be a lot about having conversations with beautiful visionaries, whether in business or not, because I think this can be a really fertile ground for. So much permission and inspiration and embodiment and education on the different ways that we all find our center, the different ways that we work in the world and we show up. I think there is such a beautiful opportunity here to showcase the magic that lives within all of us and in a way that allows you to acknowledge that. It is so good to be different, there's this notion that to be different is to be weird, let's own our weird. If that's weird, let's own it. We're not here to be carbon copies of each other. Our businesses aren't here to be carbon copies of each other. Our visions didn't come to us so that we could bring them to life based on someone else's framework, so I am really excited to share it with you. I am also working on it. Slowly, right on my way, working on it, taking my time, a humor design for children's program. Because if I had this information, if my mom had this information and my family had it growing up, I would not have experienced burnout as much as I have in this life. I can confidently tell you that I would have trusted myself more. I would have not felt shame about my emotions. I just. would have been a happier, more thriving child sooner and more, longer essentially. So I am really excited to create that program because I have seen it already, be so pivotal for other children in my life and navigating our relationships with them. It's just been so phenomenal to have that awareness to support them in such a beautiful way and get to build really beautiful relationships with them because of that. So that's coming. If you have any questions when it comes to human design for children, please come and send me a DM on Instagram. I would love to hear what you are most curious about, even what you find confusing when it comes to human design for kids. You can send me a DM. It's chloebennett. co at Instagram. So I'm excited to bring that to you. It's actually been. really interesting navigating, bringing this vision to life. Because whenever a vision comes to me, it will start to show up in my life. And there'll be evidence and there'll be information and resources to collect along the way. And something that's been really interesting is I saw a family recently and it's interesting to watch the dynamics of knowing their charts and seeing how they play out their not self energies and their aligned energies. And one thing that's really interesting is a family member of mine has a completely open throat and this family member has a habit of commentating everything. All day, every day. And it's really hilarious to be present in because I actually said to my partner when we saw them recently, I was like, they've got to have an undefined throat that like, there is no way in hell that this commentary is happening and unnecessary commentary, I might add it's not no like wild value in it. It's just. As if I wasn't witnessing things that were happening, like I wasn't present and there was a need to commentate, there is no need to commentate. And I said to my partner, I was like, they've got to have an undefined throat at least. And I looked and the throat is completely open. And the not self of a defined throat is speaking essentially when you've got nothing to say, like trying to garner attention, like you're using your voice when there's no energy there to use it. You're using your voice when there's actually nothing to say, but you're doing what you need to do and saying what you need to say to get attention. Even if there is people present and this has been a habit for this family member. For as long as I've known, it's just something I'm, I'm very used to and to see it through the lens of human design has been fascinating. And there are so many other elements of their chart as well. That's been really fascinating to learn and also knowing, I am a projector, so a not a non sacral and I grew up with a generator mum and a manifesting generator father. Now, I, my relationship with my dad was only existent up until I was like 16 and there, that relationship is no longer. So that conditioning stopped there. However, this, there is so many examples I have of a projector growing up in a sacral household that lean towards. The, reasoning or evidence as to why I've had to do the work that I've had to do. And also some other things, if I think about messaging that came from this family member with an open throat messaging Oh, and also added to this, they have an undefined solar plexus. There was always messaging that if there's any confrontation in the workplace or there's something that you don't really agree with, or maybe you're struggling with something, just put your head down, stay quiet. Don't say anything and keep working. Now tell me that is not. Undefined, the not self of the undefined solar plexus and the undefined throat. And we could throw some others in there as well. But that is just really interesting when we can use human design. Like I say, as a tool to understand the other, we can offer more awareness, more compassion, more understanding. It allows us to navigate their energies and their presence and the way that they operate in a much more easeful way. So you imagine this, right? Having this knowledge. From a really young age, having this knowledge about the way that children are here to operate, because I can tell you that the reason that these family members you know, and this goes, I find this with, I found this with coworkers, I pulled charts from everyone all over. So like friends, coworkers, family, everyone, there's always something that comes up and it's really interesting to know that. These not selves, the not self behaviors and the energies that are really strong they are all from conditioning. All of our not self behavior, our openness, there is the propensity to be conditioned, right? So imagine if we had the awareness for our beautiful children and those that we care about We had this awareness of where they might be conditioned, where, how to support them best, how to support them to trust themselves, how to support them to cultivate confidence, how to support them to thrive in relationship, in all different dynamics, right? I just, there's just something about it that I'm like, the world needs this so much. Like our, the children of this world deserve to super bloom. Absolutely super bloom and not have to come into this world, receive all this conditioning, do years and years of all this work and, trauma work to finally get to a place like 30 years down the track where they feel connected to themselves. What a gift to be able to give them to live that from day dot. And I know that, things have changed so much when it comes to parenting, when it comes to emotional regulation, nervous system regulation all of the things, and I think human design is just another brilliant tool to support that even more. And there is so many modalities out there. It doesn't have to be human design. There are so many modalities out there that their goal and their aim is to connect you back to the body. That is all human design is here to do is connect you back to your body wisdom. So you lead a body led life. You're not dictated by your monkey mind, right? So I just, I'm really excited for the creation of that. And I know that it is going to be so supportive and so brilliant. And there is a little inkling of it, actually, that. There is going to be parts of it that will be really beautiful for reparenting. If you are. Like, what am I? 33 or whatever you are and you feel like you, there is a bit of reparenting needed, it could be a beautiful tool for that as well. So I'm excited to see how this unfolds and I will keep you in the loop. If, once again, if you have any questions, curiosities, confusion, anything when it comes to human design, maybe it's for yourself. There's something specific about your chart that you're like, I just This just doesn't land, or I'm like curious about, how this dynamic might work with other people or for yourself or children, whatever it is, let me know because I am excited to share so much more with you. Yeah, it just feels really good to be in a great place with my work. I might have had to go through hell to get here. I may have had to decalcify so much. But I think this is the gift of challenge, right? I, 18 months ago or however long it's been, I never thought that I would see myself in this place now. And I know with, My Pluto placements that I am a queen and a bit of a sicko when it comes to the death and rebirth cycle and, Extricating and decalcifying everything that needs to go so I can truly thrive. So I shouldn't be shocked, but I just think it just feels like a really beautiful place to be. So maybe this message is also for you. If you are in the messy middle right now in you, if you are in this, the phase of too much, like life is just too much. Just know that if you keep following the breadcrumbs, if you keep going, if you release and allow yourself to actually release and decalcify what, deep down is not meant to move forward with you. Because at the end of the day, we all know I could have kept business coaching because it. makes good money. Let's be real. Like business coaching is a phenomenal income and I just let it go because I'm like, that's not the point of this. I know that it can be scary to let some things go, just know that when you do that, you allow yourself to step into a world where you can truly thrive, where you can feel in deep alignment and trust with yourself, and it is just such a beautiful place to be, and it's such a beautiful place to be sharing from, so I am going to leave that episode there, I trust that you got out of that episode. Whatever you've needed to get out of that, I feel like we've laid a beautiful foundation and we can now move forward and just know that if you ever have feedback on an episode or anything or ever want to chat, come and find me on Instagram in my DMs. Sometimes I take a hot minute to reply because I'm emotional authority and I don't have a sacral, so I'm just not on all the time and full permission for anybody else out there who needs that permission as well. So sending you so much love. I adore you all so much. And I will be back with another episode very soon.